So I decided I was tired of being over 200 pounds and getting by with the "Really?!? You don't look that heavy!" stuff. Some of you may be thinking that 200 pounds isn't that heavy but I can tell you that something about it felt very heavy and unhealthy to me. Anyone who has gotten winded putting on their shoes or has tried to do something that used to be easy for them and realized it surely was not easy anymore knows that heavy is heavy first and a number second.
I thing that there were a few things that got me in the mindset that I needed to do something. There are people that I am in contact with that are pretty inspirational to me. There are motivational videos all over the Internet. Occasionally my brain has an upswing and gets all happy drill sergeant on me. So there was no one defining thing that got me off my butt.
Ultimately though nobody changes without making the choice to change. I have noticed that everything seem more motivational since the idea to start exercising has solidified in my brain. It has been squirming around in my brain pan for a few days. Today I started and I am glad I did but I am also depressed as hell. My entire workout is something that I would have warmed up with when I was in shape, instead of just a shape :) Hence my depressing progress. Progress because it was a structured workout depressing because of how far i feel I have fallen. The delusions that I have maintained to keep me thinking that I am still in "OK" shape have officially been shattered. So I am reminded of a saying that goes something like this "The journey of a thousand steps begins with choosing to get your butt in gear." I know that isn't a direct quote but I am paraphrasing here and it is my blog so I am allowed. So for my "30 for 30" program my goal is thirty minutes of exercise (any kind) a day for thirty days and at the end of it I will see where I'm at... for the record my starting weight is 209 pounds. I will try and post weight updates weekly.
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